I am wondering at this very moment if you are thinking of me.....if like me, you are wondering what is taking us for so long to find each other. Many times I thought I finally found you......only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, wishing.....longing to meet you. I am thinking of how we are going to meet...; would it be as romantic as the ones I've seen in the movies?....Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other?.... that you are the one that God has prepared for me?....How I wish you were here right now because you are the only who has the answers to all my questions.......
Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known "LOVE". I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that more than not, we'll never really know what love is until we have.... our significant other!... You never know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels to be in your arms. Even at this very minute I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! (wunderbar! =)) Perhaps I would be drawn to you by your smile, or your eyes, or maybe ...even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the rigth time comes.
I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I will spend with you.... In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all that pains and sacrifices......that you are worth the wait.
After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU, honey! I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don't ever give up..... never even make it your way... make it God's way... because I am just right here......patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other.... I would slowly heal those wounds by my pure LOVE.
At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beuatiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer... that God take good care of you while we haven't have each other yet....; sending all my cries and wishes for you as well to the heavens above thinking that they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way to me and that you are longing to see me as well.
Funny but when I finally go to bed, lying there and looking at the ceiling,..... falling as sleep, it still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you.....,long enough to tell you how much I Love You. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears, and wrap me in your arms with the warmth of your love. And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the thought that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality......and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait. And when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as i had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed...., just as I had believed it would be! By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, inspite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you!
For the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow directions. Never ever worry, because I know at this point... God is molding us both..... perfecting both of us... to be the right person for each other......hence, don't be afraid of getting lost.... God will see to to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow... will lead you to me.....and I to you..... and In His time..... our roads will cross...and we will be together and will never be apart........
Well, True Love really WAITS.......=)
