Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Catch the Bouquet
I attended a wedding yesterday; glad I was there.... I witnessed the love of two people who tie the knot for a lifetime commitmment.... The wedding was really nice, very romantic... people could say it was a dream wedding... =) Seeing that, others might wish to have a wedding such as that... even my sis wished to be wed again... just to experience that kind of celebration... it was really a wow for me......=) With that, I did also plan my own wedding...... it could be in an island... a beach style, in a garden, or on a hill =)....mmmm... if that happens I just hope people I love could attend to witness that special day for me.... but you know, even I wished that day for my dream wedding.. I never participate in the throwing of bouquet... I'm now too afraid to join... several times I joined and was able to catch the bouquet of the bride... but never did a time come that I met my God's best... now I don't want to join the fun part of any wedding party coz I feel like if I'll join to any the long wait now will be more delay.... hahaha... I don't know if this feeling is right attitude... I guess I should join and always try my best to catch the bouquet, huh... coz maybe soon I'll gonna got my special gift from the One Above... God might still be wrapping him coz up to now He is still shaping me to be the right woman for His gift......=)
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Life Testimony
I was raised and grew up in a Christian family. My mother was the first person in the family who came to know the Lord. I’d seen and witnessed her strong faith and on how she fervently prayed for the salvation of my father, uncle and grandmother. Few years after then, her prayers were answered and that opened my eyes on how powerful prayer was. I remembered that my mother even woke us up at 4:00 in the morning to pray, sing praises to God and meditate His words. At that time also, our church was two hours travel away from our town but I’d seen that it was never a reason for us not to go during Sunday. Not even storms or sickness hindered my mother to serve the Lord. Seeing her faithfulness, at a very young age of four, I came to know Him. Sunday school began a big part of my life but then, as I grew up my enthusiasm in the Lord started to decline.
As my relationship with Him and spiritual life got weaker, my physical body became very sickly. December of 1988, left alone at home, I asked myself of my true relationship to God. That very moment, He knocked at the door of my heart, and I asked for forgiveness of my sins and I accepted Jesus as my personal Lord and Savior. Summer of 1994, I volunteered in Summer Training Corps at Word of Life; it was there when I dedicated my life to Jesus. After then, my faith was test several times. There was even a time in my life that I became backslidden at heart but God made ways to revive my faith. Despite my shortcomings, as what He promised, He never leaves me nor forsakes me (Hebrews 13:5).
There was also one point in my life that I experienced lot of pains and difficulties; time that I almost wanted to give up, but God goodness and grace never left me. During that distressing and discouraging time, He taught me to trust Him alone; He became my best friend, my teacher, my counselor, my companion and my comfort. He kept me safe always and it was the time where I could say He even created miracles for me. His faithfulness was so great that I realized how much I wanted to be involved in His ministry. After some time, God gave me an opportunity to teach in Sunday school and for years, I was able to serve Him in choir ministry.
God gave me then a good job and a chance to study in graduate school but both of these made me busy that I lost hold of my involvement in ministry. My heart cried but I still did nothing about it until I got bored with my job and questioned God of what was His plan for my life. Few months after, He did give me a new responsibility at work as coordinator of our international exchange students. It was through this that the Lord showed me His leading in my life. One Sunday, our speaker talked that working with exchange students would be a privilege to be Christ’s tentmaker. Hearing that, I knew that God pointed those words on me. At that time, APMC Congress was near; God gave me burden to join it. It was there in the congress that God revealed to me that the ministry that I’d long been praying for was answered. I realized then that each phase of my life, God was using it to prepare me for His future plan. As a Christian, my highest priority has been to grow in my relationship with the Lord, to know Him more and be involved in His mission. I believe that the Lord has leading to my life, He will be the one to make a way for me.
As my relationship with Him and spiritual life got weaker, my physical body became very sickly. December of 1988, left alone at home, I asked myself of my true relationship to God. That very moment, He knocked at the door of my heart, and I asked for forgiveness of my sins and I accepted Jesus as my personal Lord and Savior. Summer of 1994, I volunteered in Summer Training Corps at Word of Life; it was there when I dedicated my life to Jesus. After then, my faith was test several times. There was even a time in my life that I became backslidden at heart but God made ways to revive my faith. Despite my shortcomings, as what He promised, He never leaves me nor forsakes me (Hebrews 13:5).
There was also one point in my life that I experienced lot of pains and difficulties; time that I almost wanted to give up, but God goodness and grace never left me. During that distressing and discouraging time, He taught me to trust Him alone; He became my best friend, my teacher, my counselor, my companion and my comfort. He kept me safe always and it was the time where I could say He even created miracles for me. His faithfulness was so great that I realized how much I wanted to be involved in His ministry. After some time, God gave me an opportunity to teach in Sunday school and for years, I was able to serve Him in choir ministry.
God gave me then a good job and a chance to study in graduate school but both of these made me busy that I lost hold of my involvement in ministry. My heart cried but I still did nothing about it until I got bored with my job and questioned God of what was His plan for my life. Few months after, He did give me a new responsibility at work as coordinator of our international exchange students. It was through this that the Lord showed me His leading in my life. One Sunday, our speaker talked that working with exchange students would be a privilege to be Christ’s tentmaker. Hearing that, I knew that God pointed those words on me. At that time, APMC Congress was near; God gave me burden to join it. It was there in the congress that God revealed to me that the ministry that I’d long been praying for was answered. I realized then that each phase of my life, God was using it to prepare me for His future plan. As a Christian, my highest priority has been to grow in my relationship with the Lord, to know Him more and be involved in His mission. I believe that the Lord has leading to my life, He will be the one to make a way for me.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Friday, September 16, 2005
Love Letter to my God's Best
I am wondering at this very moment if you are thinking of me.....if like me, you are wondering what is taking us for so long to find each other. Many times I thought I finally found you......only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, wishing.....longing to meet you. I am thinking of how we are going to meet...; would it be as romantic as the ones I've seen in the movies?....Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other?.... that you are the one that God has prepared for me?....How I wish you were here right now because you are the only who has the answers to all my questions.......
Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known "LOVE". I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that more than not, we'll never really know what love is until we have.... our significant other!... You never know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels to be in your arms. Even at this very minute I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! (wunderbar! =)) Perhaps I would be drawn to you by your smile, or your eyes, or maybe ...even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the rigth time comes.
I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I will spend with you.... In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all that pains and sacrifices......that you are worth the wait.
After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU, honey! I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don't ever give up..... never even make it your way... make it God's way... because I am just right here......patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other.... I would slowly heal those wounds by my pure LOVE.
At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beuatiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer... that God take good care of you while we haven't have each other yet....; sending all my cries and wishes for you as well to the heavens above thinking that they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way to me and that you are longing to see me as well.
Funny but when I finally go to bed, lying there and looking at the ceiling,..... falling as sleep, it still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you.....,long enough to tell you how much I Love You. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears, and wrap me in your arms with the warmth of your love. And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the thought that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality......and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait. And when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as i had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed...., just as I had believed it would be! By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, inspite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you!
For the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow directions. Never ever worry, because I know at this point... God is molding us both..... perfecting both of us... to be the right person for each other......hence, don't be afraid of getting lost.... God will see to to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow... will lead you to me.....and I to you..... and In His time..... our roads will cross...and we will be together and will never be apart........
Well, True Love really WAITS.......=)
Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known "LOVE". I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that more than not, we'll never really know what love is until we have.... our significant other!... You never know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels to be in your arms. Even at this very minute I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! (wunderbar! =)) Perhaps I would be drawn to you by your smile, or your eyes, or maybe ...even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the rigth time comes.
I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I will spend with you.... In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all that pains and sacrifices......that you are worth the wait.
After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU, honey! I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don't ever give up..... never even make it your way... make it God's way... because I am just right here......patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other.... I would slowly heal those wounds by my pure LOVE.
At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beuatiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer... that God take good care of you while we haven't have each other yet....; sending all my cries and wishes for you as well to the heavens above thinking that they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way to me and that you are longing to see me as well.
Funny but when I finally go to bed, lying there and looking at the ceiling,..... falling as sleep, it still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you.....,long enough to tell you how much I Love You. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears, and wrap me in your arms with the warmth of your love. And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the thought that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality......and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait. And when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as i had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed...., just as I had believed it would be! By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, inspite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you!
For the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow directions. Never ever worry, because I know at this point... God is molding us both..... perfecting both of us... to be the right person for each other......hence, don't be afraid of getting lost.... God will see to to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow... will lead you to me.....and I to you..... and In His time..... our roads will cross...and we will be together and will never be apart........
Well, True Love really WAITS.......=)
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